(Original Art) Over the Edge

This is an original art piece made by me. This one I made because it's about so many things going on with me. 

In this piece, I drew a girl sitting sadly. Alone on the edge of a cliff. I want to capture something like a creature engulfing her or something. Something sad and depressing. Notice that she's glowing; she is the light and she is slowly fading away. This one I just used my imagination with.

I have thoughts of just giving up my money. I push hard with my art and voice acting stuff and while I love what I do, social media has been driving me off a cliff. No one cares if I make a new video; I guess they like it but don't interact with me. No one cares if I make an original art piece. And no one cares commissioning me on Ko-fi. That's why I've been spending a lot this month (and also last month). And today, dad was questioning what I spent my money on when I was done with classes: a stuffed animal that was Japan only (Mandarake) and I couldn't find it on eBay, which led to me using a service called Japan Rabbit to help me. I spent $22 on their service to buy it for me, while I paid $25 for FedEx shipping. It's like my money has gone down the drain. I'm trying my best to not to overspend and save it for other stuff like art supplies but I give up with my life and money spending. It reminds me of how I spent a lot of money back in 2021 on eBay Pokémon plushies and I was almost broke. I can't do this anymore and I rather spend it on good things that will help me with my art or voice acting career.

With my videos, I work with limited equipment. Like, I now record on my new computer which sadly lacks a back camera but I no longer use my old one because of storage issues. And plus, my old editing software crashes a lot. I now edit in CapCut. With one of my videos, "I Tried Pokémon Sleep!" I don't have a screen recorder and someone suggested I should use one. Instead, I used an animation webcam which isn't that great but I tried to capture my iPhone screen. That video was 40 minutes long and was a pain to edit. It's why I don't make videos that much and I feel like retiring again.

I found more success with real life. Last week, I got my copyright certificate for my original comic and I am working on self-publishing it (which is why I am not revealing details yet), and recently for my college I will be in a digital writing magazine; I got my certificate yesterday.

But... life is hard. And I give up. Sorry for this depressing piece.